Pride Lands

cool!

i remember this disney catlog from 1994.
ive gotta start ordering from that 1994 catlog.


OOOOO,and just think of the tlk stuff they sold at stores!

I've seen TLK shirts at a local Wal*Mart

I go a TLK shirt at the Disney store like two years ago.


Um....sorry guys if it seems like I come and go randomly. Most of you are probably going, "Yeah who cares." LOL, but I've just been having issues with life personally.

I have a rather intellectual question for anyone that, well - feels like being intellectual enough to answer it.

If we're supposed to be all loving, does that mean we have to be open and real with people too?

I don't understand. When I try this, I'm walked all over. I don't like, become some Hindu servant and let people beat me haha. I mean, when you be real with people, or, express your true feelings about how you feel...why does it have to be like your accusing them, or your an enemy all of a sudden.

Maybe no one understands me. No, I'm pretty sure alot don't. What really bothers me is that, as easy as you may think suicide is, it's not. I've tried it about 5 times and it's like I'm caught doing it every time. I'm tired of my family, of my father's lies. I'm tired of seeing my mother suffer, and I'm not ready to watch them split apart. I'm not ready to make a choice.
On top of this, I AM Bipolar, and Skitzaphranic. I'm taking advice from all sides. I can't think for myself anymore. Apparently..i can never even get married or pursue my dreams. My life is a living hell. they say, We'll help you! We want to! Just come to us please!" and I do. And when I do.....when I tell them I hear voices and see people, and sometimes feel hopeless and lost...they say I'm possessed or seeing demons.

Truth is...happiness comes off easy for some of you all. For me I can only get it in some bloody afetrlife. If there is one? I don't know. Living is a greater torture truly. I don't have anyone else to tell. I don't have friends in real life, and my parents tell me I have no hope of a life. So I ask here....what keeps you alive!? How can you live!? ...Why can't I feel trust, joy, and love? Where do you go to get it....and why to I have to kill people in this world to get there right now?

Oh, I didn't know that, Utora!...

First, my dreams, my joys, my happiness:
School's boring sometimes, but never too hard. I don't get back negative grades, so I don't have to worry. And although I have 42 school hours a week, I'm with greater standard than many others. Although I have to do home-exercise and learn for tests in the evening, I can do what I want in my free time.
And I never had much friends, I always have been outsider. Now, since two years or so, struggled to a higher level. I have some REAL friends, some friends who are more than just well-known mates. And I always think of a girl...

What you can do: Search for people who understand and are like you in your area, there have to be some! Fight against your parents, don't let yourself treat bad all the times. And before you do suicide - you'll live another 60 years, and in this 60 years maybe the last 55 will be great - maybe?

Suicide is the worst one can do, because people who give up and do suicide will never have a better time in their life again.

"You can say that easily", I can hear you think about me. I also had hard times I cried every day, but who is just him/herself and struggles for a better life, will have a better life at finally.

I wish you good luck for the next days, lion. If I only could help you!
But, well - I hope I could help you. See ya.

And be aware of it: You're not alone, never. Not with your issues, and not without people.

Utora, I think you need to be open to certain people you know and trust. Usually the people who either studied these situations and know how to respond, or people that are or were in the same situation... Going around the world telling any person who walks by your problems may make it worst...

I haven't been through any of that stuff, I haven't tried or considered suicide before, but I encourage you not to... please don't! We're all here for a purpose. You're not a mistake, even if you're treated that way by the world around you... They may look down on you right now and say all they want, if you live through it, you will look down on the world, make all those rejects shut the hell up, and say all you want...

I have no problems with people opening up to me, and I always try to help. I do feel the pain, even though it's not my own, and that's what drives me on to helping or saying a word of encouragement or two to people who really need it.

Utora писал(а):I go a TLK shirt at the Disney store like two years ago.


Um....sorry guys if it seems like I come and go randomly. Most of you are probably going, "Yeah who cares." LOL, but I've just been having issues with life personally.

I have a rather intellectual question for anyone that, well - feels like being intellectual enough to answer it.

If we're supposed to be all loving, does that mean we have to be open and real with people too?

I don't understand. When I try this, I'm walked all over. I don't like, become some Hindu servant and let people beat me haha. I mean, when you be real with people, or, express your true feelings about how you feel...why does it have to be like your accusing them, or your an enemy all of a sudden.

Maybe no one understands me. No, I'm pretty sure alot don't. What really bothers me is that, as easy as you may think suicide is, it's not. I've tried it about 5 times and it's like I'm caught doing it every time. I'm tired of my family, of my father's lies. I'm tired of seeing my mother suffer, and I'm not ready to watch them split apart. I'm not ready to make a choice.
On top of this, I AM Bipolar, and Skitzaphranic. I'm taking advice from all sides. I can't think for myself anymore. Apparently..i can never even get married or pursue my dreams. My life is a living hell. they say, We'll help you! We want to! Just come to us please!" and I do. And when I do.....when I tell them I hear voices and see people, and sometimes feel hopeless and lost...they say I'm possessed or seeing demons.

Truth is...happiness comes off easy for some of you all. For me I can only get it in some bloody afetrlife. If there is one? I don't know. Living is a greater torture truly. I don't have anyone else to tell. I don't have friends in real life, and my parents tell me I have no hope of a life. So I ask here....what keeps you alive!? How can you live!? ...Why can't I feel trust, joy, and love? Where do you go to get it....and why to I have to kill people in this world to get there right now?

It sure isn't easy being you.
What can i say?
I read your pain and i hear you suffering.
All though I never seen suicide as an way out i can realize how some people do.
Even though it feeds a very selfish thinking.
I wouldn't say that some gets off easy with happiness... Happiness is something we create for ourselves.
So you asked what keeps me alive, and the only answer i have to give you:
Dreams... and even though i may not reach them i can admire their beauty and try to follow where they may lead me.
So how can I live? I just take it day by day like any other and try to reach the dreams i have.
And a long the path i was given i find the happiness inside my heart.
Why you can't feel trust, love and joy i don't know maybe that's a question only you can answer.
Where I go to get it? Well, it comes to me but it hasn't always been like that...
In the past i was seeking for it every awaken moment and it was only after i stop looking for it that it found me.
I'm not really sure how come but that was the way it went.
I don't see why you have to kill people and how it could help.

I don't know if this makes any sence for you or if it helps but i hope for you to find happiness, trust, love and all that you might need.

Presently an american stays at our city, today when we had English in school as every Tuesday (and Wednesday), our professor brought the american with her. "Anne Chiekowski" she's called, and she lives in Oak Park next to Chicago. After university she applied in different european countries, she decided to go to Austria. Now, a short time, she stays "here".

In the school lesson she talked about herself, and so on.

It was very funny but also interesting, woah, a real american woman being here

(And she told us that many americans don't know Austria - but some americans know Austria by "sound of music" )

And the U.S.A. will have over 300 Million people in a week...woah!

And Mrs. Chiekowski told us this here is the emptiest place she ever had lived in, because in her conurbation, in the conurbation around Chicago, there live 5 Million people. Imagine!

In Chicago 5 Million - in Austria 8 Million! Woah! Hrhr.
And now she stays at a conurbation with not even 250.000 people...that's kinda freaky for her, I bet.

And I got told Americans use "sexy" instead of "cool" when something is amazing! Muaha!
(Here we use "cool"!)

oh i had a dream aboout anew lion king movie preview,this dude was talkin to simba and simba just jumped off a clif.

And I dreamed of my old village, with the field next to the road, that we lived there and all our (me and my brother) friends visited us for Halloween, or what it was. Even Anna, my dear, and my best friends, and so on...and in the night sitting in the field watching the stars...woah, a great dream!

cool dream mikeo!ok i went camping a few years ago and me and my boyfreind were looking at the stars,mufasas voice ran in my head and scences of mufasa and simba looking at star s ran in my head.and i heard mufasa say:look at stars,the great kings of the past look down on us from those stars,so whenvever you feel alone just call them. man i just love that qoute.

Yeah, it was a pity I was woken up and had to stand up...
Damn school


(School's really damn, I have a psychological problem in school these days...*siphing**dreaming*)

Ok, my favourite quote:
Danger? Ha! I laugh in the face of danger! Hahahaha!

i love that part!

your right schools a crappy waist,but im not gonna quit.


and if your gone from school somtimes you just need to take a break,and the police come looking for you and arrest your parents thats what they do at my school

What do they do at your school!?

I...haven't checked the meaning...?

Uff...

Question to all (at this time - three, four people, I bet?):
What you dress as at Halloween in ten days?

well they do....

no chewing gum.

no toys in class.

no playfighting.

no cussing.

no fighting.
and if you get 15 points you have a detionion.20 points in house suspion.

my prinecpil came up with these rules.he is the head boss.




oh what am i dressing up for hallowen,ahh,i might make a lion king costume.

If you make one, you have to hurry!

Come stai?
Sei americano?
Di dove sei?
Quanti anni hai?
Que lavoro fai?

Buonanotte! A domani, a presto! Alla prossima volta!
Ho sonno...ho la tosse, ho mal di gola, ho il raffreddore!

Sto non c'è male. Abbastanza bene - cosi cosi.
Oggi sto male.

Buonanotte, ho sonno.